Saturday, August 18, 2007
i think i have becomed weaker.
physically and emotionally.
as i am typing this, there is a war going on in my stomach.
and frankly, i always lose out.
haven't gotten any better from my illness.
it has been stuck with me from 2 weeks ago.
friday at exam was the worst day for me.
went home totally weak and pale.
and, i just had to screw up my day even more.
joyce just has to be so brilliant in the many wrong ways.
i know this is hard to believe.
but i just want to be what i was in the beginning.
able to remain clear-headed.
able to concentrate.
able to be just me.
people always say.
treat those around you well.
don't regret what you do a few days later.
but now, i can tell for sure what is regret.
the feeling of regret is something that makes you turn your guts inside out.
it makes you think for what reason are you living for tomorrow?
when all you have is lost.
when all you feel is loneliness.
gradually, you will lose all feelings of sanity.
you go insane quietly, wandering in the compounds of your mind.
and in the night, i will listen to my ipod and quietly cry my heart out.
for that is the only time, i can bare myself out, to no one but myself.
i guess this is the only one true post i have ever made since the beginning of this year.
and after this post, i will continue my miserable life.
but
http://patheticscar.blogspot.com will not remain.
hopefully, it will be better.
one to give me hope.
one to give me life.
people say that there will never be anyone who understands you but you.
but since april, i have found someone else who did understand me better than i did.
however, ytd was the last day.
what is the truth?
i know no truth.
who holds the truth?
please come and find me.
till then, i'll hug my dragon and fly.
fly away.
please, take me away.
from here.
i just want to thank:
GOD for letting me have peace.
marcia for always being there for me.
jon for letting me share everything and lending me your time to cry over the phone.
edwina for protecting me.
BY i.who.loves.gummy.bears/9:27 PM;
Friday, August 17, 2007
i pierced my ears today!!
all thanks to edwina.
i'm sure if she wasn't there, i wouldn't even pierce any.
grahhhh:/
and she bought for me gingerbread earrings!
the last 2(:
wheeeee-
LOVE HER<3
accounting paper today was like, vomits-
i don't know if it was because it was too hard, or i am too stupid.
i didn't finish the paper, and i'm not confident of my answers.
talked to jon last night.
i don't know why, but i really trust him a lot.
everytime i need someone to talk to about matters, we always call each other.
bestie(:
BY i.who.loves.gummy.bears/7:14 PM;
Thursday, August 16, 2007
my mummy is so brave!
haha(:
she was a new nurse, and one time, the malay attendants locked her in the mortuary.
for 15 minutes!
but, she wasn't scared((:
now, she is fearless!
like xena!
hoooHA!
going out with edwina tmr!
going to pierce my ears!(:
accounting paper tmr(:
i hope i have fun doing it!
i had so much fun with marcia today!
BY i.who.loves.gummy.bears/10:37 PM;
ANNOUNCEMENT:
marcia and i are opening a rejected and big butts club(:
haha!
we came to a notion that whoever was rejected has big butts.
or big butts are rejected!
i don't really know.
(:
ooo marcia!
you silly girl.
i know you love my dragon too!
and it's the mascot of our clubs!
you just have to go and check out her drawings!
it's totally fantastic!
url is:
http://marc21.deviantart.com/
BY i.who.loves.gummy.bears/11:46 AM;
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
it's the wrong person talking to me.
it's not the right person.
hello charlene!
where are you?
(:
joyce is awfully bored here!
sigh.
BY i.who.loves.gummy.bears/11:38 PM;
have to complete econs, stats, and marketing today!
jiayou joyce!
ooo, i'm blowing blood out of my nose):
freaky:/
SOMEBODY LOVES MY DRAGON!
hahaha.
pokes-
lousy la you!
go buy lor(:
winks-
kuku misses birdbird!<3
(:
BY i.who.loves.gummy.bears/11:26 AM;
Sunday, August 12, 2007
got my crumpler!(:
made new friends at raffles!(:
wheeee-
now is the time to cast everything aside and just study(:
shoooo!
ooo flu, ooo cough, ooo fever.
go away!
):
BY i.who.loves.gummy.bears/1:49 PM;
